Just a note, this post is going to come out pretty rambly, unstructured, and boring to those of you without kids. Sorry.
I am so confused about food and my baby.
For the last week I have been feeling like Baby Aislynn is ready to progress from just breast feeding and onto some food. She is staring at us when we eat, trying to grab off my plate, and putting more and more things into her mouth. I've brought it up a few times with Cuinn, but not seriously enough to have a long discussion about it. I've done my research. Before Aislynn came along I had planned on doing BLW (baby led weaning). I just felt that it would be like an extension of breastfeeding. Allowing Aislynn to have a lot of control over what she's eating and allowing her to eat naturally. I found this site very helpful in giving me the low down on BLW. I still need to get my doctor's opinion. Our next appointment is on the 29th. I hate having to wait.
On the other hand, I can give her some rice cereal NOW and I don't have to wait until 6 months. Which is 2 months away! Also, the nurse at one of my mommy groups told me that giving the baby rice cereal is fine. And that for some babies it is a good start to get them going on working their mouth on something other than milk or formula.
Through my research though, I'm finding that there is next to no actual nutrients or benefits to giving her rice cereal. The only real good part of it is the breast milk. Which she is already getting from me when she eats. So is it really necessary to give her "empty calories" through rice cereal?
I don't know.
Cuinn keeps telling me that I should just go with my gut. But how do I go with my gut when it changes every day? I mean, I really do think I am leaning more towards forgoing the whole rice cereal thing and go back to my original plan of BLW. On the other hand though...
I have been fighting these thoughts over and over in my head for the last week. Well, if I'm going to be honest, since she was born. I don't know why, but the food issue has been on my mind since I was pregnant. I don't know why, but my mind always fixates on one thing and I just can't shake it. The last 6 months, it's all about baby's food.
Since in the last week I've been really thinking about the rice cereal I felt a little weird when, at church today, my new friend C and her husband S told us that they just started their daughter N on rice cereal yesterday! Their daughter was born a couple weeks before Aislynn so is roughly the same age as her.
Now, I know. I'm not supposed to compete with other moms. I KNOW. All babies do things at different times. I KNOW. What's right for one baby is not necessarily right for another. I KNOW.
But honestly? I felt so upset that N is on rice cereal and I haven't started with Aislynn yet. I felt like I was behind. I felt like I needed to catch up.
So I went out and bought some rice cereal.
And I'm beginning to think it was a mistake.
I just. I dunno. I really hate being the mum sometimes, y'know? I hate that I have the final say. I know that a lot of people are really glad that they have the final word and what they say goes, but for me it's just stressful! I want to make the right decision, and I hate having to make the final decision. Because what if I'm wrong? No one is there to tell me that I made the absolute right decision or the absolute wrong decision. Yes, there are tone of people on both sides giving me their opinions, but in the end they always say, "But you're the mum and ultimately it's YOUR decision. Do what YOU feel is right."
The thing is...
I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S RIGHT!!!!
I'm new at this. Would you ask the person at your job who had only been working there for four months what to do? No, you would ask the more experienced person. They would know what to do. The newbie would have no idea.
So why are you making me decide?
Anyway, after writing this blog, which has taken me about an hour, I think I am going to go with BLW. I think I am going to hold off on the rice cereal.
I have a doctor's appointment on the 29th. Maybe I'll talk to him and see what he thinks. Either way I look at it I lose though. I'm wrong if I give her rice cereal and I'm wrong if I do BLW.
GAH, I'm too much of a perfectionist for mothering sometimes. I just wish I had one option. The only right option. So that I knew for certain what I was doing was right. Especially when it comes to my daughter.
I know I'm probably going to regret asking this, but what do you, my lovely readers and follows, think? Should I wait until 6 months and do BLW? Should I just give in and give her some rice cereal? What do you do and why did you choose that? Do you have any good references? Thanks!