A blog just to blog...

One day I will no longer be pregnant and I will feel better again. Maybe then I'll blog on a regular basis again.

Oh wait, except I'll be chasing after a two year old while nursing a newborn...

Someday, when my kids are in college, I will blog on a regular basis again.

Probably about how much I miss when my kids were littles again.

So for now, I'll enjoy all the moments.

Taking Aislynn out trick or treating.

Cuddles on the couch.

Laying in bed with her while she falls asleep.

When she brings me a book and asks me to read it. 5 hundred times in a row.

Jumping in the puddles.

Carving pumpkins.

Being the only one who can feel baby movement.

Hearing the baby's heartbeat and watching as Cuinn has his first real smile I've seen all day.

Watching Aislynn interact with her friends and seeing how she already has her favorite people. (I'm looking at you C, R, B, J and N family)

Seeing her dance in the middle of circle time instead of sitting like she's "supposed to". (This is a whole 'nuther blog post)

I am loving being a mum, even when:

I want to pull my hair out and scream,

Lock myself in the bathroom and cry,

Am hunched over the toilet feeling so sick,

Drinking as much water as possible because it's supposed to take the headaches away,

I'm curled up in bed feeling so sorry for myself and so sick.

I love it because Cuinn and I have made these people. These amazing little people who have minds and opinions of their own.

No one can ever explain to you how much love your heart can hold, not until you've experienced it. And man, is it an experience worth having.

A few weird fears...

Do you have a weird fear or phobia? Or something that you HAVE to do or your day is rotten? Like putting your left sock on first? I have a few. Like, really weird. So weird I feel silly telling people, but since I'm so into the lists lately, and I'm wanting to blog but I don't really have much to blog about right now, this is easier. Wow, that was a really long sentence. 

Also, I want to make this a linky linky thing but I don't know how. So. If you feel like joining in on the madness, you are more than welcome. Please just tell people to come see my blog too though. Then we can all share the weird fear love!

So, here's a few of my weird things.

I was standing in the kitchen, staring at the apple juice in the fridge, trying to remember if I bought it last grocery trip or the grocery trip before last. Most people would just open it up and smell to see if it's gone bad or not, right? Not me. I am absolutely terrified of rotten food/drink. Seriously. I rarely eat yogurt because I can't tell if it's gone bad or not and so I just assume it is bad and I can't eat it. Cuinn is no help in this matter. Even if food has gone bad, he'll still eat it. So when I ask him, "Are these crackers bad?" he will eat one and after the first chew he says, "it's fine." Yes, this is a real scenario that happened. Crackers. I was so scared that the crackers had gone bad that I wouldn't even eat one to check first. This fear is so bad that if I think something has gone bad I will just leave it in the fridge because I am to terrified to touch it. Cuinn has to clean out the fridge because I'm so scared of yucky food. Even if it's not yucky! In my head I know that an expiration date isn't set in stone and you usually have a few extra days, but if something is about to go bad, I won't touch it. For example. If the expiry date is January 7th, I will not touch it after January 1st. In fear that it might have gone bad early. You know what, I could probably write a whole post on my weird fear of rotten food. Maybe another day.

If I haven't worn a pair of shoes in a long time, I have to check to see if there are spiders in the toes. Yes. Spiders. I even have to make Cuinn reach his hand into the shoe/boot/slipper to see if there are any spiders hidden that I wasn't able to get out when I banged the shoe on the floor. By the way, by long time I mean if I haven't worn them in a week. This is the same with pants. And shirts. And sweaters. Really anything I wear that I have to put a body part in blindly.

Before going to bed, I have to turn my pillow over twice, punch it once, pull the covers up to my ears, sigh and then sink into the mattress. After that, I stick my right leg out from under the covers and go to sleep. Every. Single. Night. Oh, and if the bed is made, I have to mess up the blankets. I dunno.

When I get out of the shower I dry my entire body BEFORE drying my hair. So, I'm trying to towel myself off while my wet soaking hair is dripping all over myself, thus getting more wet. Basically I dry myself, dry my hair, then dry myself again. What a waste of time.

I always put my shirt on first, walk around the house, eat breaky, help Aislynn get dressed, get everything ready to go, then I put my pants on. 

Before I can sit down to eat dinner I pee. Doesn't fail. And if I don't pee, after like, 3 bites I have to go pee. It's been like this forever. Ask my mum. I ALWAYS used to get in trouble for leaving the table during dinner to go pee.

Whenever I need to have a think I start picking at my lips. It drives Cuinn insane. I go through so many tubes of Burt's Bee's chapstick because my lips are ALWAYS chapped because I pick at them and tear the skin off. It's so gross, but I can't stop.

I drive a stick, when you drive a stick you should always put your car into first when you park it. I don't really know why, but my dad told me to, so I do. BUT, every time I get into the car I put the car in neutral, release the handbrake THEN turn the car on and put it right back into first (Or reverse, depending on which way I'm going). Why do I do that? I do that EVERY SINGLE TIME. Without fail. What's up with that? I NEVER check my mirrors though. I will be driving along, then I want to look at Aislynn and realize that my rearview mirror is set for Cuinn so I have to reset it, while I'm driving. I've got weird driving habits.

I won't touch raw meat. Ever. We always buy the BIG packages of meat that need to be portioned down into zip lock baggies and thrown in the freezer. I will go to the grocery store, buy all my meat, put it in the fridge until Cuinn comes home to portion it for me. Then, when I'm cooking, Cuinn has to cut it all up for me. 

I can't drink soda without ice. A&W is the last place on earth that I would ever go to eat because they don't serve ice with their drinks. Which is gross. I need my drinks to be ice cold. I even like ice in my chocolate milk, but I don't do it, because Cuinn makes fun of me for it.

I'm sure I have other weirdo things, but this is all for now. You can all take a look at my list and laugh, but you just remember. You do weirdo things too!

A Thankful Thursday...

I feel like I've been doing a lot of list blogs lately.

I don't have anything to say about that, I just realized it. That's all.

What up Thursday?

This Thankful Thursday I'm doing something a little different. I'm still going to tell you what I'm thankful for, but it's going to be more geared to a specific thing that I'm thankful for. To be more clear, this is a list of 20 reasons why I'm thankful I'm a grown up. 

Because although it sucks a lot, sometimes it's awesome...

1. I get to be in complete control of my bathroom stuff. If I need to pee, I just go to the bathroom. I don't have to ask anyone. Ever. Suck on that 4th period English grade 12. I always had to pee, and my teacher would always say, "This is your last class of the day, can't you wait until school's done?" NO, I CAN NOT. I HAVE A TINY BLADDER, WOMAN!

2. When I'm in a crappy mood, no one tells me to "get control of that attitude young lady. It is not appreciated." If I'm in a bad mood, I'ma embrace it and stomp and slam doors all I want.

3. I can go on my cell phone whenever I want without someone making me give it to them until the end of the day. That would be stealing. Ain't nobody gunna be touching mah stuff!

4. I don't have to ask to borrow the car. Because it's MY CAR.

5. I don't have a bed time. I go to sleep whenever I feel like it.

6. I get to choose what's for dinner. Don't feel like chicken and broccoli? Fine, let's have pizza instead.

7. When  get groceries, I get what I want. If I decide that Fruit Loops is an appropriate cereal choice then I'm gonna get me some Fruit Loops. And nobody's going to stop me! (well...Cuinn might, but he's not the boss of me!)

8. When I tell people that Cuinn is my soul mate and the one, they don't look at me in amusement, they look at me like I'm so lucky to have found him. 

9. I buy my own clothing, which means I don't have to justify it. (Although, I do have better taste in clothing than 16 year old me did)

10. I don't have to hold anyones hand when crossing the street. I do that all by myself.

11. Nobody rats me out to my mum if I screw up. 

12. I don't have homework. But if I do have a project due, I don't have parents saying, "Have you started your project yet? When are you going to finish your project? Why aren't you working on your project?"

13. I don't have a curfew. If I wanna stay out all night, nobody's gonna stop me. (Well...Cuinn might.)

14. If I wanna make out with Cuinn on the couch, nobody will be coming home and making us stop. We can make out on the couch for hours if we wanted too!

15. This pregnancy might be a surprise, but since I'm all growed up and married and responsible (or whatever), I don't have to drop out of school and go away to "visit a relative" for a few months. A surprise when you are 25 is much more acceptable than it would be if I was 10 years younger.

16. If I think it's cookie time. It's cookie time.

17. I get to have a sleepover every single night with my best friend. Yeah, that's pretty awesome.

18. If I feel like turning the heat up, I can. Without having someone tell me, "Just put a sweater on."

19. Speaking of sweaters. No one tells me to put on a coat before I head out the door. 

20. I get to watch whatever I want on tv. Well, as long as Aislynn is in bed. 

So, even if being an adult is kind of a drag, what with paying the bills, not being nearly as skinny as I was when I was 16, and having to be "grown up", sometimes it's really awesome.


Linking up with Jade, as per my Thursday usual!

A Belief System

 

I believe in nap time.

I believe that Love is not just an emotion, but a choice. And hard work.

having said that...

I believe that Love can conquer all.

I believe that you can't survive life without Love.

I believe that I am saved by the power of Jesus Christ and that you could be too.

I believe in the importance of friendships. Young and old.

I believe that being a SAHM would be easier without all the other SAHM's.

but...

I believe I couldn't get through my days as a SAHM without my fantastic support system of other SAHM's.

I believe that some contradictions make complete sense.

I believe in traditional family values. 

I believe in family.

I believe that every single mother craves some time all by herself. No matter how "perfect" she seems.

I believe there is no such thing as the perfect mother.

I believe in spontaneous flowers from your husband.

I believe in working on your marriage so that it will last a lifetime.

I believe I might be a communist....

I believe that a date night with your husband should be at the top of your priotirty list, no matter how busy/broke/tired you may be. You're never too busy/broke/tired to make your relationship a priority.

I believe that fellowship with other Christians is imperative to leading a Christian life.

I believe in taking a stand and never backing down.

I believe in Aislynn, and all that she will accomplish.

I believe in Cuinn, and all that he does for his family.

I believe that cheese dip nights on the couch can fix most things.

I believe in the reset button.

I believe in family dinners. Every night. (thanks mum and dad)

I believe in girls night out (or in)

I believe men need time away too.

I believe in the importance of family traditions.

I believe that having a best friend means having someone you can call at 2 in the morning because you're scared. Or happy. Or bored.

I believe that your phone needs to stay in your purse when you are with someone else. 

I believe in kindness and manners.

I believe that you can still feel homesick for people.

I believe in following your dreams, and bringing people along for the ride.

I believe in listening and answering when you are called. Even if it takes me a while...

I believe in walking away when you've had enough.

I believe in reading.

I believe in dancing to the rhythm of your own drum.

I believe in making people laugh.

I believe in being the center of attention. Yeah, I said it, as if you people think I don't know I'm an attention hog.

I believe in building people up.

I believe in random acts of kindness.

I believe in Rhubarb White Hot Chocolate and peppermint salt water taffy. And not sharing...

Mum? I'm running out... Please send more!!!

I believe in sharing a meal with friends.

I believe in helping one another out.

I believe that a good hair cut makes you feel like a million bucks. And that's a great thing.

I believe Erin rocks. Thanks for the link up!

A Win Or Two...

You know how sometimes a small thing happens and you feel like a superstar? Yeah, I love that too. I don'y get to feel that awesome often, but when I do... It's the best feeling in the world. Here are a few things I consider a win...

When I am driving through our tiny town, and I drive over the train tracks, then seconds later I hear the DING DING DING, signalling the train coming. You know what that means? I don't have to be stuck in our tiny towns 45 minute traffic. I get so excited I punch the air and yell, OH YEAH!!!

Sometimes, Aislynn wakes us up at 5:30 am. But sometimes, when she feels like loving us a lot, she sleeps in until 9. Do you know what it feels like to get to sleep in until 9? OH YEAH!!!

(I am assuming that every singly reader of this blog is woken up by children at un-godly hours. Please don't tell me otherwise. I am feeling good today.)

This one sounds kinda sad, but it has a silver lining and actually makes me happy. I love when you realize that a friend is just not the friend you thought before they can hurt your feelings. I would much rather know who are my homies before I get hurt. So I feel like that's a win too. OH YEAH!!!

Last night I had a very bad dream. I was married to someone else who I wasn't in love with at all, so I was cheating on that husband with Cuinn. Cuinn didn't ever want to get married, but he would tell me all the time that he loved me. I decided to leave my husband so that I could be with Cuinn. So I told my husband that I didn't want to be with him anymore and I went over to Cuinn's apartment to tell him the good news. I got there, but it turned out he was also married to someone else but had never told me. Worst dream of life. Know what's awesome though? I woke up, looked over, and Cuinn was snoring and drooling in my bed. Turns out it was just a dream and I had actually married the best guy in the world. OH YEAH!!!!

Free cookies. Need I say more? OH YEAH!!!!

Buying your 19 month old daughter a big girl bed, and for three nights straight she sleeps all by herself! OH YEAH!!!!

Driving through our very frustrating tiny town (seriously, the traffic in this tiny town does not make sense to me. Get your S*** together, tiny town.), knowing that it usually takes 20 minutes to get across town because I always get every red light. BUT, on this day, I got all greens. And no trains. And people were actually driving the speed limit and not 10 under. I got home from dropping Cuinn off in 8 minutes. OH YEAH!!!!

Cuinn and I have a special love for wings. When we first started dating our friends all used to go out for wings every Wednesday. We have special feelings towards wings. Unfortunately, the only good place to get them here is a really crappy pub. Terrible service. Over priced. Not really that great. I have been saying to Cuinn since we moved here, I wish Wild Wings was here. Guess what is being built right now, down town, within walking distance to us? You guessed it, Wild Wings. C'mon, say it with me, OH YEAH!!!!!!

Sometimes Aislynn whines. Most times I have no idea what she's whining about. Every once in a while though, I figure it out right away and I am able to give her exactly what she needs. First try! OH YEAH!!!!!

Being pregnant is... well... I don't know how to finish that statement. But I always find the first little while rough. Especially when I have a bit of a bump but I really just look fat, not pregnant. That makes me sad. Know what makes me happy though? When I put a shirt on and pants on and I don't have to change because the first thing I pulled on actually looks good! OH YEAH!!!!

Leftovers. That means I made a really good meal, but Cuinn and I used portion control and I am able to enjoy the meal all over again! OH YEAH!!!!

When every single toy is put away. Every. Single. Toy. OH YEAH!!!!

Surviving a Saturday by myself. All of my friends are spending the day with their hubby's while mine is working. I feel a little proud at the end of the day. OH YEAH!!!!

When my socks match. OH YEAH!!!!

When I finish a blog and people actually comment on it. OH YEAH!!!!

So, what do you consider a small, or big, win?

A Thankful Thursday...

It's been a while, but I kinda feel like a great place to make a comeback is to be thankful for all I've been blessed with. I'm not sure if Jade will be doing a link up, but I'm sending you all over there anyway, because her blog rocks. So there ya go.

Thankful Thursday

I'm thankful for...

1. The surprise God has given us. A new little life is forming in my womb, and I am so excited to meet this new little person.

2. That the naseau is easing up a bit. I'm still not back to 100%, but I'm feeling better. I don't think I'll be back to 100% at all this time 'round, but it's all worth it in the end.

3. Our friends J and S who had my brother, Cuinn, Aislynn and I over for Thanksgiving dinner. I got to eat a fantastic turkey dinner, without having to cook it! Just had to make a couple of pies. Totally worth it.

4. Fall is here!!!! Oh yay.

5. Our new pastor is on his way soon! Cuinn and I got to hear him speak for the first time on Sunday. He's back in England again, but he and his family will be here next month. Our church hasn't had a leader for the whole time we've been there, and although we feel like we've found a church home, it felt even more so getting to hear our new pastor. We are thrilled with where our new leader will take us. 

6. IKEA shopping trips with the husband and my friend. We got Aislynn a big girl bed and when we got home Cuinn put it together right away. Which brings me to...

7. ...Aislynn sleeping in her big girl bed THE WHOLE NIGHT BY HERSELF!!! We'll see how the rest of the nights go, but last night (her first night) I cuddled her in her big girl bed, and she fell asleep within 20 minutes. Cuinn heard a thunk at about midnight and went to put a pouting Aislynn back into her bed and she fell right back to sleep. My baby is growing up!

8. J and J who are letting us store our crib at their place until we need it again. Which won't be for a while and hopefully we'll be in a bigger place.

9. Getting back to singing. That's all I'm saying for now. Because I'm very nervous. And I don't want to talk about it. But I am very thankful for the opportunity. 

10. Cuinn and I having 8 date nights coming up in the next few weeks. We're going to a marriage course that is offered at our church once a year. It's an 8 week course, and we keep being told it's like a date night for 8 weeks. Looking forward to that.

11. Aislynn has been communicating with us a lot more. Lots more words, sentences, it's been an adventure. She's still pretty quiet around other kids and adults, but R, our daycare provider, mentioned that she was becoming more chatty at daycare. So that's a step in the right direction.

12. The bakery here in our tiny town. I wanted some cookies, so Cuinn took me to the bakery, but they had closed early. I was so disappointed, so I commented on her Facebook page. Not in a snarky way, just asking what her hours were. She emailed me right away and told me she had sold out of everything so she closed up early, THEN she told me that since I missed out, she would give me half a dozen cookies on the house! So tomorrow, I get some free cookies! I am always impressed by excellent customer service.

13. Walks with some lovely friends. This is happening twice a week, sometimes more, and I'm loving the fresh air, the exercise, the company, the changing leaves. It's all wonderful.

14. Taco's for dinner. Yum.

15. Getting a Costco membership. You have no idea how excited I am for this. Probably more than the normal person.

16. Clean clothes. Always appreciated.

17. When Cuinn does the dishes. I love a clean kitchen. Which I usually just mess up again anyway, but it's nice to have it clean for a little while anyway.

18. Warm, relaxing baths. Usually this is not something I am thankful for. I don't enjoy just laying in a tub, but while pregnant, tubby time is my favorite time. Plus, Cuinn always draws the bath for me, so it's an extra special treat.

19. My friend C just got home from vacation our east, her family is very special to ours. One of the reasons is because she is so thoughtful. Her daughter brought Aislynn home a necklace from her vacation and she brought ME home some peppermint salt water taffy. Oh. My. Word. Pretty sure I'll finish the bag in my tub tonight...

20. The fact that Aislynn and I can cuddle and watch a movie now. She's at the age where she likes to pick a movie and then cuddle on the couch with me and watch it. So sweet.

So, that's my weekly list. Head over to Jade's and see if she's doing a list too.

A (not so) Silent Sunday...

I'm back, my friends. And this week I am going to blog all about what's been going on with this lady and her family over the last monthish. I've missed you all. Have a fantastic Thanksgiving! We are a blessed people, be thankful!