A Father's Day (not so) Silent Sunday...

Change Barber shop to pharmacy, and that was my childhood.


Happy Father's Day...


To my dad. Who was, and always is, there for me. With advice, a hug, a joke, whatever I need. Who loved my mom with all of his heart and followed God's word as well as he could. What a shining example of what the man of the house should be.


To my husband. Who is the head of our home, who is my partner in raising our child in a God fearing home. Who is a hero to our little girl and a hero to me. I love you.


To my father in law. Who always has a smile on his face. Who helped raise the man I love. Who loves his children and grandchild, unconditionally.


To my heavenly Father. Who holds me in his hands. Who gave his life for those who don't deserve it. Who loves us, all of us, even when we turn our back on him.


To all of the Father's in the world who love their children. Thank you as a daughter, as a wife, and as a mother. 

A Thankful Thursday...

Is it seriously Thursday again already?!?

I feel like I'm constantly saying this but... Where did the time go?

It's been another really awesome week, so it's another easy week for a Thankful Thursday post. Here goes nuffin'!

1. My first awesome garage sale find of the season! Aislynn loves it. Daddy loves it. I love it! And I only paid $20 for it! The guy felt bad and said, "But there's black paint splattered on it!" He felt bad charging me "so much" for it. It's practically brand new with a tiny bit of paint on it guy, you're giving me a wicked deal!

2. Being able to visit Cuinn at work. He's being doing a lot of out of town stuff, and it's just going to get worse in the next few months, so I cherish the days that Aislynn and I can pop in for a visit. Although, this time Aislynn wasn't much company...

3. The wonderful summer weather we've had so far. We get a few scorchers, but a lot of cooler days in between. Which allows the Simpson family to enjoy the few really hot days rather than makes us stay indoors for 3 months with the a/c blasted!

4. Our little kiddy pool. Aislynn loves it, and I love sitting outside, watching her learn and play.

5. Aislynn's fashion sense. She picks a lot of her outfits out herself. Not a lie. Most of the time, it's really awesome. Some of the time it's a rubber boot and a flip flop.

6. Bagels with cream cheese and jam. It's like dessert for breakfast!

7. When Aislynn wakes up with puffy eyes. I love how snuggley and small she seems when she wakes up. Like she's my little baby again. 

8. Instagram. I think I might be obsessed. Follow me!! @sarah_pants

9. Cuinn having 2 days off. IN A ROW!! Bliss!

10. Our Dr. We had Aislynn's 15 month check up which included a vaccine that Cuinn and I are not comfortable with. Our nurse was a little crusty about it, but our Dr was amazing. There are so many other reasons why he's amazing too though. Like how he always says, "Yep, she's perfect!" After he finishes his check up with her. How he talks to us, not down to so. He listens and really is invested in trying to help. How he always makes time for us and doesn't make us feel rushed. How he told Cuinn to just wait in the waiting room and he would see us between another patient rather than Cuinn coming back 3 hours later for his appointment. The list goes on and one, but bottom line? Best Dr we have ever had. 

11. This video. 

Am I the only person who hates their own voice? Also, I know I say "Thar you go." For some reason I thought it would be fun to sound like a pirate? Actually, it's more likely that I thought in my head I was saying That's so sweet, but my mouth decided to say there you go which turned into That you go. Sometimes my brain and mouth don't play well with each other...

12. How well my Epicure is doing. This was just one order! Not even including the cookware! Still not entirely sure what Epicure is? Ask me. We'll chat!

13. As much as I complain about the tiny town we live in, I kinda love how quaint it is. People who have lived here forever keep complaining about how "big" our tiny town is getting. I always have to bite my lip from laughing out loud. I think the tiny town is growing on me. 

14. My favorite moment of the day is when my car crosses the railroad tracks, and then the lights start flickering. I feel like I have beaten the system. "HA HA TRAIN! FOOLED YOU! YOU WON'T STOP ME THIS TIME!"

Obviously, this time I did get stopped...

15. We get complimented all the time on Aislynn's accessories. I always love the fact that Cuinn has picked out both Aislynn's hat and her shades. My family is so stylish. I just hide it really well. 

16. The moment when all the laundry is folded. Ahhh. By the way, this pile doesn't include Aislynn's clothes, or Cuinn and my underwear/socks basket. Didn't feel like Cuinn would be very impressed if I posted a picture of his boxers on my blog...

17. The gorgeous flower bushes that are behind our Dr's office, on the way to the park. We like to stop and pick all the petals off smell the roses. All of them. One at a time. I really love how much of an investigator my daughter is.

18. The book I'm currently reading called The Slap. The book is so far away in my bedroom, while I am laying on the couch writing this blog, so I can't actually tell you the author right now. But I'm enjoying it. I thought it was going to be all happy, dappy, mom literature, but it's a little more rough than I was expecting. It's by no means excellent, but I'm enjoying it and it's a quick and easy read. I'll let ya know if the ending was worth it.

19. Cool breezes coming through the window at night. I love it.

20. Watching Aislynn interacting with other kids at the park. Recently we've been changing our schedule so we can play with kids her own age and other stay at home moms. It's been a rough transition at times, but I really think it's been doing both of us a lot of good. 

Oh, Jade. I'm not sure if you know this, but the Thankful Thursday's are doing me a world of good. Thank you. 

If she does a link up, I will be linking up through Jade. Her blog rocks. Go give her some love!

A Silent Sunday...

A Letter To...

Dear Modern Family, 

You are way to addictive for me. I can't stop watching. 

Dear Fudgcicles. 

You're deliciousness makes me happy. Thanks. 

Dear Husband, 

Thanks for fixing the bike trailer thingy. My ride home was so much easier. 

Dear Aislynn, 

I'm sorry that you were so sleepy for the bike ride home, and I'm sorry that I couldn't cuddle you until we got home. I love you. 

Dear Annoyed Woman In The Grocery Store, 

OOOOOH, that's my kid crying? I didn't realize that. Thank you for pointing that out! Seriously, you have no idea how much that helped me out. I'll make sure to put a muzzle on my kid, just like you suggested. By the way, did you realize that your hair was turning grey? And that buying diet pop and weight watchers bagels doesn't really help when you also have Key Lime Pie and 2 chocolate cakes in your cart. Jerk.

Dear Nice Lady In The Grocery Store,

Yeah, that woman was a jerk. Thanks for trying to make me feel better with your kind words of encouragement. It did help. You reminded me that for every jerk in the world, there is an equally nice person.

Dear Zehrs Employee,

Thank you for putting all the stuff that was in my cart away so that I could just leave with my kid. Who was not impressed.

Dear August,

Hurry up and get here so I can see my mum and dad!

Kinda love these.

Link it.

A Thankful Thursday...

I woke up today feeling awesome.

Well, sort of...

Being a woman sucks once a month, so that wasn't awesome.

But my heart and my heart feel so full this morning, I love that feeling. So today's Thankful Thursday was an easy one. 

1. Date days with Cuinn. Date nights are awesome and everything, but lately with Aislynn waking at 6, a date night just ain't gonna happen. A date day though? Oh heck yes!

My dreamy man.

2. R, our daycare provider. Our date day wouldn't have happened if we didn't have an awesome daycare provider. 

3. Our friends J and S. They watched Aislynn ALL DAY on Saturday. Then when our first pick up for Aislynn didn't quite pan out for yesterday, I call J and she happily agreed to watch her AGAIN! Cuinn and I feel so blessed that Aislynn is so loved. I guess we are too...

4. Cuinn's FBF (that's kinda like a BFF, only a little more hardcore) got us tickets to the Boston and Jay's game for last Saturday. It was awesome. Plus, my brother came too!

5. I had a "work" meeting last night. Is it still work if you love it so much.

6. Trips to a new library with a good friend. 

7. My daughter's best friend.

8. The Proverbs 31 women in my Thursday morning study group. I'll miss you this summer ladies!

9. Not having apples to make apple crisp, but remembering my mum's words of wisdom, "if I don't have it in the cupboard, I just make it up as I go!" Apple crisp turned into whatever fruit was in my fridge crisp. And it turned out not bad.

10. French fries. Those salty sticks of goodness. I will always choose you over ice cream.

11. Skype convo's with my mum and dad. Even Especially if their mic isn't working. Oh the hilarity.

12. Having all the toys off the floor. Even for just 2 hours while Aislynn sleeps. So that's what color the carpet is!

13. Being able to count down to my mum and dad coming for a visit! 55 days!!

14. Father's Day crafts that are coming together. So exciting!

15. Driving fast with the window's rolled down.

16. The Epicure party I did on Sunday. The hostess did so much work that I feel I didn't have to do too much and I am so proud of how well she did! It gave me the lift I needed about Epicure too. 

17. Red toenails. It's so nice to be able to pain my toe nails and not be embarrassed. 

18. Aislynn in overalls. Love.

19. Emails from friends. 

20. An empty dishwasher. A small thing, I know. But I just love when all the dishes are away, and I don't need to clean any of them. 

A List Of Ten Things...On A Tuesday...

I always forget about certain day posts.

Like my Silent Sunday posts. Or my Thankful Thursday posts.

I can't even remember the last time I did a Tuesday Ten post.

So here I am, on a Tuesday, checking out my blogs, and I saw a few Tuesday Tenners and I was like, "Hey, Sweet, I actually am doing a blog on the right day, so I best be following the crowd!"

So, apparently the list of ten things this week is supposed to be our fav possessions.

Which honestly? I don't even know if I have ten things I love. Not that I don't have stuff. I have a lot of stuff. I just don't really care enough about said stuff.

ANYway, here goes nothing...

1. My wedding ring and engagement ring. I am not a jewelerry wearer. So Cuinn was basically flying solo on the ring buying front. All her knew was that I think yellow gold is gawdy. Some people can rock it, I can not. I think he did pretty well.

Can you even see what it looks like in this picture?

Anyway, my wedding band was a custom order. Cuinn knew I would hate the band that originally came with the engagement ring, so he went about customizing a band to fit my engagement ring. The man is amazing. 

2. My pearl necklace, bracelt and earrings set. Cuinn also got this for me. It was my husband gift. His father got his mother the same thing for her present, so he was going along with tradition. I tend to only wear them on our anniversary because I want to keep them special. Also, fun fact, did you know you're not supposed to get real pearls wet? It ruins them. The more you know!

3. Aislynn's blanket. It used to be mine when I was a baby. Now she uses it every night. I love that.

4. My iPhone. I really did NOT want an iPhone for a really long time. I hate touch screen. I don't like apple. I just didn't see the point. 

I. Was. Wrong.

5. Our car. We get a lot of grief from a lot of people about our car. But it was the first car we have owned as a married couple. It's the car that brought Aislynn home from the hospital. It's the car that moved us from the big city to our tiny town. We've done a lot in that car and it's been really good to us. It's held together by duct tape and dirt. The muffler is gone. Yes, gone. The gas gauge is broken. The odometer is broken. There is a hole in the gas tank so we can only fill it up half way. But that baby has a lot of memories packed into it. So make fun all you want, but I'll probably bawl like a baby this summer when we have to say good bye to her.

6. Our wedding album. Our photographer was a good friend of ours and she is also one of the most talented photogs we know. She did our engagement shoot too. She was able to capture so many amazing moments and I really love looking through the album and remembering out perfect day. Sigh.

7. My new brie baker. Love. Cheese dip never tasted so classy.

8. My bed. Seriously. I have the most comfortable bed ever. My parents bought it for Cuinn and I for our wedding present and it is the best bed I have ever laid in. Plus, it's the family bed, and I love my family snuggles.

9. My reading chair. I have always wanted a really comfy, awesome reading chair. I was browsing one of the mom to mom swap sites I frequent and someone was selling a chair for 30 bucks. I just happened to be online when she posted and was first to comment. I won. Seriously, I think there was about 25 people who kept saying, "If she passes, I'm next in line!!" It was in such good condition, and it is soooo comfy and the perfect reading chair. I love it. I should get a picture of it so you can all see how amazing it is.

10. My passport. That baby means that we can up and travel, any time we want. Yeah, we might not be able to afford it, but the freedom that owning a passport means to me? Priceless. 

Linking up with my home girl Jade, over at Constant Chatter. Give that girl some love! She is awesome!!

A Bit Of Nothing...

Warning. This post was really meant to be about something else, but then I just started typing, and I went with it. It's not my usual hilarity, it's a bit more introspective. I think...

Sometimes my life feels really boring.

Aislynn wakes up, Cuinn and I cuddle with her and try to put her back to sleep so we can have another ten minutes.

Doesn't work.

We go out to the living room and I make some breaky while Aislynn runs around the house. She is so a morning  person. Cuinn and I so are not.

Cuinn is off to work.

Aislynn and I go about our various routines. Sometimes it's mommy group. Sometimes it's a park day. Sometimes it's a play date. Sometimes it's errands. Sometimes it's pj's and a movie. 

Aislynn goes for a nap, I tidy the living room/disaster zone.

Aislynn wakes up and destroys all the tidying I did.

Cuinn comes home and I start dinner.

We eat, then we either head to the park, or play together on the floor.

Then Aislynn goes to bed. And Cuinn and I have some time together.

Lately I've been feeling like I'm in a rut. A mummy rut, if you will. I feel like I've given so much of myself up. Which I am totally happy to do. I might not have known exactly what I was getting into by making the choice of being a stay at home mum, but I am absolutely happy with the decision.

But there's still that niggling feeling of, when the heck did Sarah the person completely check out while Sarah the wife and mum completely take over?

This last weekend I went on a retreat with the ladies from my church.

I found Sarah the person again.

I had a whole weekend of reflection, and prayer, and fellowship with other ladies and quiet. It was such an honor to be a part of this weekend. We were all sharing things that were so intimate, and I really felt like I was a part of this huge family of sister's uplifting one another.

I realized that I have been carrying around a few deep hurts, I realized that I haven't been walking the path that God has been so clearly laying out for me (Actually, it's more of Him knocking me over the head with a mallet and I've just been ignoring it), I realized that I've been hiding behind this role of just being a wife and a mother and completely ignoring the other important part of me.

So, there will be a few changes in my life. And I've come to you all, my dear precious readers and friends, asking for prayers. 

Prayers for the huge step that I will be taking in the next few months of going back to one of my passions.

I'm not quite ready to share the plans yet, because I'm so scared. I told two of my closest friends. My two girl friends who will keep my accountable because they always do. I hope you two know that it was completely intentional that I told you two. It was no mistake.

I'm so blessed in so many ways, and now it's time to take some time for me. Which scares the poop outta me!

The good news for all of you is that I'll be posting a lot more! I love to blog, and I have found a love for writing. I don't think I'll be winning any awards for my rambles, and I'm sure it's full of errors and a particular English major who I've known for years is probably cringing at most of it. But I am really enjoying it. So, part of the change is that I am getting back to blogging! So I'll be here. A lot. I hope you all stick around too.

Thanks for reading.

OH, and here's a pic of Aislynn. It's not a blog post without a pic of my darling girl.

Oh, those eyes.